Connor J Sheffield

Not A Memory, A Scar

Each day
When I look in the mirror
I don't see me
I see you

As each day passes
As each year falls
I become you just a little more
Whether I want to or not

I am my fathers son
But I will not be my father
I may raise my child
Like you raised us
But I will not abandon them

That's what it feels like
You left mother for another
You broke the hearts of all of us
You abandoned us
And left us to pick up the pieces

No one has left such an impact on me
No one but you father
The bullies can bully me
For every day that I spent in the hell they called school
But after each day it'd be no more than a memory

You're not a memory father
Memories can be hidden
Forgotten
But you're not a memory
You're a scar

A deep wound
Without stitches
Still bleeding

A poison
Without the antidote
Still paralyzing
Causing my mind to collapse