Connor J Sheffield

Listen

Listen
What I'm about to tell you
May compel you
To sympathize
And recognize
That even the big guy cries

When he's home with no light
No daddy to say goodnight
But believe me when I say I'm alright
And despite the fact I still write
About the only man who could break me
He also made me

Turned me into the man I am today
And no way
Would I change the way I am today
Because today I am stronger
I am weak no longer

There's a hunger inside of me
To be all that I can be
Do you hear me?
Do you see me?
Do you even miss me?
Because it cuts deeply
When my mind reminds me

You left
And you don't want to come back...

I'm sorry if there was ever anything I did wrong
Did I listen to the wrong song?
Or have the mind of a child too long?
What was it that made you leave?

Did you have enough
Did it get too tough
To raise two men

Mum fought through that struggle alone
Now we have a home
And she has emerged victorious
And its glorious
To hear people say
"You've raised two great men"

Where were you when
I moved up to college and chose my career
Where were you when
I turned 18 and I was full of cheer
Where were you when
I struggled with the work and nothing seemed clear
Where were you then!?

I suppose none of this really matters anymore
I write these words knowing you'll never read them
If you saw this it'd be scrap paper on the floor
To hear the truth about what happened when you walked out the door
Well guess what dad, I'm done crying for you
Because I finally come to terms with the fact that I don't need you no more